Sometimes I get this feeling..

Sometimes I will stop and just think through everything that is happening in my life and ask myself if this is what I want out of life, I have already figured out where I want to be in 20 years but I'm not sure about how I'll get there which makes me wonder if I should take a different path..

I'm not sure what I'm doing to be quite honest..

I suppose all I can really do for the moment is just be happy with what I have now and aim for better things in the future.. I have a games programming session with some computer science PhD graduates in the local university in the half-term break coming up so we'll see where to go from there..

On a lighter note I have started a games design company under the name of Exabyte, hopefully some of the guys at Greenfoot (java games development organisation) can teach me some new stuff to play with for the current games I am working on..

That seems to be it for now, toodles..


Keltan

Really cannot be bothered to think of a title..

I honestly feel like giving up on everything, I don't even know why I'm bothering to put the effort in if I don't get anything in return..

I've sat here for hours thinking things through, over and over again.. I just can't see why I bother trying sometimes..

It seems like I've lost everything for nothing..

I have coursework to be getting on with..

Signing off..

Keltan.

The past 2 years..

Tonight was the first time I've looked back on my life and realised how much of a fucking arsehole I can be..

I actually hate my old self so much.. here's a list of what I've learnt ^.^

- Never ask out somebody who tells you they like somebody else.
- Never get too cocky (although a little bit is fine ;) )
- Never get into a "friends with benefits" situation.. EVER.
- Stop caring, If you care too much you'll end up getting hurt.
- Never tell people how you feel, they'll use it against you.
- Girls lie, ALL THE TIME.
- Girls are manipulative and will always try to get what they want, even if they say otherwise.
- Don't take shit from anybody, if somebody decides to fuck you over drop them, break their ribs and kick their teeth in, make them cry.. They deserve it.
- Some people take life too seriously.
- I from this minute forward will not take into consideration anyone else's opinions, they're always shit ones and I'll do whatever the fuck I like to enjoy my life.


That's pretty much it, fuck you guys, Goodnight.

Keltan.